The Mission

When I was 25 years old, I had all what I truly have been dreaming of when I was growing up. I had a very well paid job with an important position at a very high level institute in Jordan, a brand new car, an LV bag, countless suits and shoes, travelled for pleasure at least once a year, In addition to lovely friends, and many strategic contacts all over the Globe. I basically had it all…

I grew up in a family were we all had to work hard; we believe that the harder you work the more life will give you, and the luckier you will become. That’s why I always worked so hard, as if I was in a race, or I was going to miss the train of opportunities and luck. Whenever I reached one of my goals, I set a higher goal, a more challenging one. I was under the impression that I am growing in the right direction,-quoting Tsunami here- “my happiness is just around the corner” I had everything, but I wasn’t happy…

Until one day, I was offered to work for an NGO in Amman that works on fighting hunger in Jordan. I was hired as head of fundraising. This NGO was a turning point in my life. We used to go to remote villages where people had nothing to eat; or the basic needs of life. I witnessed in my 2 eyes mothers sending their own children to orphanages because they cannot afford feeding them. I saw elderly sick men and women who are so weak, teenagers who lost hope in life or in any better conditions. This period of my life shocked me, shacked me from head to toe. I started to feel embarrassed to go to restaurants and pay money, thinking that 2 families will survive for 1 month at least with the amount I would pay. I stopped buying clothes…something deep inside me started to mature and face the reality of our unfair World….I took some steps backward to rethink and contemplate, what do I really want out of my life?

I matured a lot during that time, I started to feel the value of all what I have,the all the blessings around me. I became more giving,less selfish, less materialistic. It was then when I met my adopted son, who is the meaning of my whole existence, I am blessed for having him...he is the apple of my eye...my biggest supporter...

The same question was still on my mind…

Then, I met Tsunami, my whole life went upside down, I believed that I was giving up my life for the right reason, I thought that I was very unattached to everything around me, my career, my car, my friends, the social status I have. Honestly-everything. It was such a demanding relationship, I worked so hard all the time, made the choice of giving everything up.It felt like I was on the highest mountain peak, then jumped all of a sudden into the deep ocean…as if I was walking naked in the snow… I couldn’t move…by time,I have realized all what I have given up was for the wrong reasons…

Recently, I reached to a conclusion that it is true that I am learning to be less attached to materialistic things in my life, I also discovered that I can survive and make it work anywhere in the World, I am a very resourceful woman, but what I am trying to say here, is that I needed to be reminded of what is more important in life, what is more meaningful, what were my ulterior motives, in giving up things, when I was with Tsunami.
I didn’t do anything for a good cause or as a sacrifice, I wasn’t a victim. On the contrary, I was aware yet blinded by the fabulous fantasy which Tsunami has painted in my mind, he was great in nurturing it and making me even act upon it.

Nowadays, I am really feeling good; my life is simpler and worries-free zone, my health is better. Day and night I count my blessings, I am grateful to all the experiences I had gone through so far, because it certainly lightened my path, and surly will make my life journey more interesting. If I were able to give all what I have or will ever have to others, I wouldn’t mind and won’t hesitate, I will do it with a blink of an eye, because now that my motives are well defined, clear, purer and more human. I will always work hard, that’s my nature, this is how I was raised, but yet again, it will be for the right reasons…. I definitely needed this wake up call in my life, nothing should ever be taken for granted,I will not live forever… no one will, I was brought to this World to perform a mission… I am just hoping to be a real human mission…I am surrendering to life...


“Generosity is not giving me that which I need more than you do, but it is giving me that which you need more than I do.” Gibran


Aurora