The Power

I am confused! When does a person decide to get rid of being self controlled?

We grow up in families, societies that impose on us certain values, beliefs, views about life, religion, sex, male, female, education, relationships, politics and many other things… basically almost everything. This is a form of control. I personally was raised up this way, with a room to think and argue what has been filtered to me.

I noticed that, the older I am getting the more liberal and free I am becoming, of course, exposure and education play a great deal on freeing the soul and unleashing the potential. Recently, I have been into so many discussions with some friends on how self controlled we are, although we claim to be so open and free but the truth we are not… actually we are very far. Last year, when I decided to drop my whole life for Tsunami, live an adventure although it was shockingly very painful, I believe that I over came all the odds of self control which I previously suffered from. What I mean here, is just be, live life, without any anticipation or planning. Of course, I used to be control and planning freak, but this wasn’t the case in my love life.

In love and massive attraction, we intend to worry; plan jump into conclusions. This even gets worse, at least for females, especially right after having sex. But honestly, why some men are acting this way too? If we the females are more emotional than men, why men are becoming emotions and feelings control freaks? As if- quoting a friend here- “we don’t want to get hurt”. If 2 people, a male and a female, met, liked each other, attracted to one another, can speak about anything in the World, have great sex, like almost the same things, and one little detail here, can sleep deeply and well when they are together. Why they would want to control and plan their feelings? Why they want to stop being natural and wear a mask, hide and pretend to be someone else??? In life you can control almost everything, but seriously we cannot control the heart… and the chemistry between 2 souls!!!! We can close our eyes on my many things in life, but we cannot close our hearts and souls… we just cannot. I fully disagree with idea that men has to master and control their passions… well men after all are human being too… why are we asking too much from them!!! Or in other words, why they should continue the act of self control… is it a secret of happiness or misery???

It is just so alright to let yourself go, to let your soul be… as long as you can get it back, you will get it back, but in a different shape, look, smell and color. Because, once we surrender to the other, we let go of our soul. We entrust our soul to somebody, some will feel that their soul is becoming richer day after day; their soul is more real and happier, more than ever. They would finally feel complete

Yet on the other hand, others will get back their souls, in a hard way, but still, their souls will grow and mature. Whatever the out come might be, we can never know unless we try. Of course our strength here is in how we react, in our attitude.

No one can live in fear of something bad might happen, this won’t be life, it is as if being dead while being alive… just be, live life to the max, fall and rise, hit the ground then bounce back… this is the secret of love… so unpredictable, unexplainable yet cannot live without it… many opportunities come and go in our lives, but unique opportunities are rare, what a waste if we let our self control and fears be the source of our power…we live once, women or men…

Aurora